I went and sat near her house for hours, but I was too scared to go to the door. I’m scared to see her upset and she might be upset with me, so I just left the flowers and stuff on the porch.
I stayed home from school again. I’ve been looking through Li ming’s Myspace all day to see who she’s been spending her time with and what she’s been doing. I keep scrolling up and down all of her pictures because she’s so beautiful and I can’t believe that she’s not mine anymore. It was such a short taste of love, so bittersweet.
I’ve really been thinking about ending it all. Without her, I don’t have anything. My parents don’t give a fuck, my siblings all suck, and I have no friends who aren’t Li ming’s friends first. Also, I don’t know how I’m going to face her on Monday. I’d do anything, ANY THING for her, but she doesn’t even want to talk to me.